Things are hard right now, really hard, and I edited my distribution list down to those who have not passed quick judgement on the situation. However, this post lies here for all to view. Many things were said today and many of those things were regretted by those who said them. These things were said by those not really even involved. Perhaps they feel that I deserve some type of punishment for recent circumstances. -Even though those circumstances have not, and may never be explained from my perspective, to them. People have emotions and people have the right to be upset. I am at peace with that.
I sit here myself, very much upset, tired (drove to Sacramento at 2 am and can't sleep worth a "bleep"), lost for words, and taken a back from what has transpired throughout my original distribution list and the previous evening.
Friends, family, I never expected as much concern or love that has been shown throughout the day. You are all the best, and I can only hope to have the opportunity (hopefully not like this one) to show you the same. Whatever your opinion or thoughts, I hope you are with me in recognizing that there is something very, much, so, more important than the quibbling that has occured.
I miss my daughter. I cry for her. I love her. She is my life.
Damn,... I'm going to go do some sit-ups.
